The Gift of Trauma Transformed - Held within the symptoms of trauma are the very energies, potentials and resources necessary for their constructive transformation. 
Western medicine and culture typically block our innate healing process – by using drugs to suppress symptoms, by over-emphasizing adjustment or control, or by denial or invalidation of emotions, feelings and sensations.


Silentium! (1830)

Speak not, lie hidden, and conceal
the way you dream, the things you feel.
Deep in your spirits let them rise
akin to stars in crystal skies
that set before the night is blurred:
delight in them and speak no word.
How can a heart expression find?
How should another know your mind?
Will he discern what quickens you?
A thought once uttered is untrue.
Dimmed is the fountainhead when stirred:
drink at the source and speak no word.
Live in your inner self alone
within your soul a world has grown,
the magic of veiled thoughts that might
be blinded by the outer light,
drowned in the noise of day, unheard…
take in their song and speak no word.

Fyodor Tyutchev (1803 -73)
translated by Vladimir Nabokov

(Note the exclamation mark!)
Silentium – Osip Mandelstam (1910)

She has not yet been born:
she is music and word,
and therefore the un-torn,
fabric of what is stirred.

Silent the ocean breathes.
Madly day’s glitter roams.
Spray of pale lilac foams,
in a bowl of grey-blue leaves.

May my lips rehearse
the primordial silence,
like a note of crystal clearness,
sounding, pure from birth!

Stay as foam Aphrodite – Art –
and return, Word, where music begins:
and, fused with life’s origins,
be ashamed heart, of heart!

(Died 1938 in the Russian Gulag, aged 47)
Shelter by Daniel Gerhartz

The Boys from Brazil (1978)

Enjoyed watching this film again - with Ann ap this time - came out the year I took up my first and only incumbency. Gregory Peck joined the film in July. Olivier had recently been ill and was taking as many well paying movie jobs as he could get in order to provide for his wife and children after his death. Peck agreed to portray Mengele only because he had wanted to work with Olivier. Mum was a big GP fan.
Jim Knipfel writes -  The Boys From Brazil is Weirder Than Any Horror Movie. What has Gregory Peck, Laurence Olivier, James Mason, and 92 Hitlers? Give up? The Boys From Brazil! Yes, weird, but still entertaining.

Dead of Night (1945)

Dead of Night is a 1945 black and white British anthology horror film, made by Ealing Studios. The individual segments were directed by Alberto Cavalcanti, Charles Crichton, Basil Dearden and Robert Hamer. It stars Mervyn Johns, Googie Withers, Sally Ann Howes and Michael Redgrave.

Architect Walter Craig (Mervyn Johns) goes to Pilgrim's Farm to see a potential client. When he arrives at the house, he gets the feeling that he has been there before. Once inside, he meets a group of people who seem oddly familiar. He tells them that he has dreamt about each one of them and begins to list events that occurred in the dream. Walter's revelations begin a conversation amongst the group, and each person admits to having experienced a strange, unexplainable event.

Enjoyable on many levels: watching great actors, a black and white classic 1hr 45minutes long, although  it was 'stories within a story' it kept me hooked for the entirety, kept wondering why no one has made a modern version, even if loosely based on it. My Mum was a Googie  fan and my Dad liked Mervyn - lived to the age of 93, and was the father of another parentals favourite, Glynis Johns, who I have just discobvered is still alive at 97!

My favourite ‘memory’ of Glynis

‘Tucked’ – an unexpected little gem from 2018, on Netflix.

WE BOTH LOVED IT. I had been researching UK based ‘film companies’ earlier and came across Brighton based Jump Start Productions and Jamie Patterson – his 12th feature length film, and he’s only 34 years young. What a talent. Didn’t even know that Derren was still alive and going strong at 85 years of age. A brilliant and exquisite performance.

Derren Nesbitt and Jordan Stephens

Yes! ‘Your Honour.’

A series produced by CBS Studios in association with King Size Productions. It premiered on SHOWTINE on 6 December 2020.
Just finished a good gut-wrenching mini-series on SKY Atlantic . Had no idea, beforehand, it was based on the original Yes Studio series, “Kvodo.” If follows the same storyline, featuring a father and son, although,  the relationship between the Israeli father and son is more fractured and fraught says the article by Jessica Steinberg.
Intrigued now by the whole issue of 're-makes.' Must read up some more on the whole concept in contemporary  culture. Can no one come up with more original ideas? Adrian Hennigan, for example, writes:  "I’ve actually seen three different versions of the opening episode in recent days: the Israeli original, the U.S. remake and an Indian version that’s almost literally a shot-for-shot facsimile of the Israeli show – down to the minutest detail. (Little wonder the Hindustan Times called it “a faithful remake of an award-winning Israeli show”).

'Your Honour' packs a lot into 10 episodes. Wouldn't expect deep analysis of the main characters in that time. It moved along nicely (nice!!!!) for me and kept me hooked and on the edge of my seat.  That'll do for me with this kind of mini-series.  


The 2nd Drunken Song
(Nietzsche’s TSZ)
“Come!” They all hear the sound of a bell: 
midnight is coming.

One o’ clock!     
O Man! Attend!
 What does Deep Midnight's voice contend?
I slept my sleep,
And now Awake at Dreaming's End:
The World is Deep,
And deeper than day can comprehend.
Deep is its Woe,
Joy —Deeper than Heart's agony:
Woe says: Fade! Go!
But all Joy wants Eternity,
Wants deep, wants deep eternity.

Twelve Midnight!

The Sisters Brothers (2018)


'The Sisters Brothers' review: Murky morals, compelling characters
John C. Reilly produces and stars in this dark, stylish anti-Western about a pair of ruthless bounty hunters on the trail of a humble chemist. Riveting.
John C Reilly and Joaquin Phoenix
Just found out JCR produced. The latest grim, sardonic entry on the big screen is “The Sisters Brothers,” a prestige vehicle (read: Oscar bait) for producer and star John C. Reilly - with fellow producers  Michael De Luca, Rosa Attrab and Alison Dickey -  and the first English-language film by acclaimed French director Jacques Audiard (“A Prophet,” “Rust and Bones”). 

More pedigree (sorry): The script was adapted from the novel by the 2011 novel by Patrick DeWitt, which was shortlisted for the Man Booker Prize.
and Riz Ahmed and Jake Gyllenhaal

Great to see a Western, again, but above all a good captivating story – loved the ending!

Twilight of the Idols – love this title

As Nietzsche himself indicates, “what the word ‘idols’ on the title page
means is quite simply what had been called truth so far” 

Philosophizing with a Hammer - another great title!

Although the work is “a little light adventure into a psychologist’s idle hours” 
the philosophical import of Nietzsche’s theses is anything but light; it marks
nothing short of a conceptual revolution in Western thinking whose impacts
 were felt throughout Western culture in the twentieth century
The key to Nietzsche’s criticism of the Western philosophical tradition’s rationalism is his
identification of a twofold movement: the denigration of reality, regarding it as a secondary world of appearances, and the positing of a fictional “true” world of ultimate value to justify this denigration.